I really appreciate your consistence but I sincerely hope that you can give up before it is too late. I have to tell you that I am a very determined person. It is quite difficult to change my mind if I have made my decision already.
You should know that I am going to the USA a few months after. Why do you still think of having a relationship? You have done lots of things to please me. "Thank you very much" is the only thing that I can say. But at the same time, you also have done many things that make me feel uncomfortable. Checking my social life is a typical example. I have many good friends and it is nothing special that I have lunch or dinner with them. I think it is none of your business what kind of friends I hang out with. Please do remember that you are not my parents and you don't have the right to ask me. Do you know how annoying it is? Maybe asking this question has become your habit already and you don't even think of considering my feelings.
Please kindly stop asking me too much about my social life. Thank you.
30.8.07
27.8.07
After concert
I always like the time after concert because I can get new pieces. I don't have to practise 1st movement of Grieg Concerto anymore temporarily and I have planned to learn 2nd and 3rd movements later but definitely not now.
My piano teacher asked me what pieces I would like to learn. My answer was "any work by Liszt". She gave me two suggestions: Un Sospiro and Hungarian Rhapsody No.11. I didn't want to learn Un Sospiro because I heard it too many times in music camp this summer. Hungarian Rhapsody No.11 is an exciting piece but not my favourite one. I asked my teacher if I can do No.6. She said that it is possible but No.6 is a lot more difficult than No.11. When I took a quick look at the score, with no doubt, it was really true. No.6 has many passages that have consecutive octaves. Comparing to it, No.11 seems much easier. I struggled for a period of time and my final decision was No.6 because I wanted to learn the more challenging.
Besides Liszt, my teacher suggested me to practise Chopin Etude Op.10 No.4. This is to improve my finger works. I was so excited when she said that because it's one of my favourite Chopin Etudes. Just hope that I can handle two new pieces at the same time.
My piano teacher asked me what pieces I would like to learn. My answer was "any work by Liszt". She gave me two suggestions: Un Sospiro and Hungarian Rhapsody No.11. I didn't want to learn Un Sospiro because I heard it too many times in music camp this summer. Hungarian Rhapsody No.11 is an exciting piece but not my favourite one. I asked my teacher if I can do No.6. She said that it is possible but No.6 is a lot more difficult than No.11. When I took a quick look at the score, with no doubt, it was really true. No.6 has many passages that have consecutive octaves. Comparing to it, No.11 seems much easier. I struggled for a period of time and my final decision was No.6 because I wanted to learn the more challenging.
Besides Liszt, my teacher suggested me to practise Chopin Etude Op.10 No.4. This is to improve my finger works. I was so excited when she said that because it's one of my favourite Chopin Etudes. Just hope that I can handle two new pieces at the same time.
Red wine
I tasted my first red wine a few weeks ago. It was a dinner with my dad's secondary school classmates and their family. I never thought of taking alcoholic drinks before 18 and especially I was sick on that day. Then I saw all the "kids" drinking red wine. I asked my mom if I could sip a bit. Surprisingly, she said yes and later she just gave her glass to me.
Honestly, I didn't really like the taste of red wine. It was slightly bitter since it was pure red wine but the percentage of alcohol was very low. However, I finished the whole glass because when the wine reached my sore throat, I felt like it was being burnt. That made me feel comfortable for a short period of time.
Two days ago in a dinner with my relatives, I drank red wine again. This time it was blueberry wine that contained 10% alcohol. It was said that the percentage is quite high. But it tasted a lot better than pure red wine. It was a little bit sweet and actually, quite delicious. That's the reason people may get drunk more easily because they may intend to drink much wine that they can handle. I told my aunt that I love the blueberry wine very much. She said that next time I can try whisky. Of course, I will have to add lots of ice into it. Looking forward to trying it.
Honestly, I didn't really like the taste of red wine. It was slightly bitter since it was pure red wine but the percentage of alcohol was very low. However, I finished the whole glass because when the wine reached my sore throat, I felt like it was being burnt. That made me feel comfortable for a short period of time.
Two days ago in a dinner with my relatives, I drank red wine again. This time it was blueberry wine that contained 10% alcohol. It was said that the percentage is quite high. But it tasted a lot better than pure red wine. It was a little bit sweet and actually, quite delicious. That's the reason people may get drunk more easily because they may intend to drink much wine that they can handle. I told my aunt that I love the blueberry wine very much. She said that next time I can try whisky. Of course, I will have to add lots of ice into it. Looking forward to trying it.
25.8.07
New start
I haven't updated my blog for a few weeks. The reason was that I had been concentrated on the preparation for a concert. Indeed I just performed one movement of Grieg Piano Concerto. Honestly it is not a very difficult concerto, comparing to Rachmaninoff, Chopin, Liszt etc. However, I still had to spend lots of time to practise because it is a very famous concerto and I had a feeling that I must try to do as much as I can. There is no such thing called "perfect music". You can think of something to improve each time you practise. Since I am a perfectionist, I never feel satisfied of my playing. As a result, I had spent most of my time on this piece for the past few weeks. I thought about this piece in my mind all the time even when I was on the MTR or having meals.
Finally it came to the concert. It was my first time that I didn't feel nervous at all before performing. I used to shiver when I was waiting to play. However, I was just so calm yesterday. When it was my turn, I just walked out to the stage and took a bow. At that moment, I realised that I actually love performing on stage very much. I was so happy when I saw the audience clapping their hands. I messed up lots of notes actually but there was something which I did better than before. That was I was very confident even when I heard my wrong notes. And also, I think I was able to convey my feelings to the audience. I always failed to do that because when I was young, my attitude towards playing piano on stage was like a student finishing homework. However, last night it was entirely different. I could feel that I was enjoying the performance and I didn't want to leave the stage. I remember my teacher told me, "A good performance does not mean playing all the notes correctly. But it means whether you can play it by your heart and allow the audience to understand your emotions and feelings. Music is a language and it has the power to let people understand you. Wrong notes do not mean anything. Just forget about the notes when going up to the stage." I think I could do it last night finally. To me, this improvement symbolizes a new start in my piano playing.
My Chinese has been deteriorated rapidly after CE. I will begin to write in English in the future. Also, my secondary school life is over. I am going to take MTD programme in BU these coming few months before I go to college in the USA. I think these two changes represent two brand new starts of my blog and school life.
Finally it came to the concert. It was my first time that I didn't feel nervous at all before performing. I used to shiver when I was waiting to play. However, I was just so calm yesterday. When it was my turn, I just walked out to the stage and took a bow. At that moment, I realised that I actually love performing on stage very much. I was so happy when I saw the audience clapping their hands. I messed up lots of notes actually but there was something which I did better than before. That was I was very confident even when I heard my wrong notes. And also, I think I was able to convey my feelings to the audience. I always failed to do that because when I was young, my attitude towards playing piano on stage was like a student finishing homework. However, last night it was entirely different. I could feel that I was enjoying the performance and I didn't want to leave the stage. I remember my teacher told me, "A good performance does not mean playing all the notes correctly. But it means whether you can play it by your heart and allow the audience to understand your emotions and feelings. Music is a language and it has the power to let people understand you. Wrong notes do not mean anything. Just forget about the notes when going up to the stage." I think I could do it last night finally. To me, this improvement symbolizes a new start in my piano playing.
My Chinese has been deteriorated rapidly after CE. I will begin to write in English in the future. Also, my secondary school life is over. I am going to take MTD programme in BU these coming few months before I go to college in the USA. I think these two changes represent two brand new starts of my blog and school life.
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